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What Does Friendship Mean?

Posted by ckashaan on March 27, 2015
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Hey, it’s Anthony, friendship could mean a lot of things and honestly friendship is having trust in that person or just a person who is there for you. I know you guys have a lot of friends that you like to hang out with and like to talk with but, the question is do you think they are your friend.

Sometimes you have rethink about them and think about the right and wrongs of what your going to do. To be honest, I’m going to be truthful with you guys, I don’t trust half of my friends just because the stupid things they do. Like’ They are always cutting school and asking me to go with them and I would say no because I have school and I would never cut any of my classes. But, I also feel that I’m letting them down at the same time. You never want to let down your friends or hurt there trust. A lot things go wrong, as you may know already. I mean everyone goes through problems with there friends all the time.
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MY LITTLE..errr..BIG MIKEY

Posted by ckashaan on June 17, 2012
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so i went out to meet my oldest little brother at my middle little brother’s football practice so i could take him to play handball. he doesn’t like just sitting around waiting for it to end because he gets bored soooo easy lol. and i got there early so i figured i’d watch my brother practice a bit. I was trying to give him a a couple more weeks to get settled in before i started watching his practices so i could be all big bro-status and give him epic pointers on how to do better, but i saw something i didn’t expect to.

my lil bro made friends bigger than him. and they surrounded him like a perfect barrier against anything. most epic metaphor ever

of course i felt a little displaced like my lil bro who needed me to protect him from everything no longer needs me, but i was so happy for him. he’s really learning how to be on his own. adapt to the crowd around him. fit in and be comfortable. i no longer need to worry about him when he’s not around me because now i know he will be ok.

so i just leaned on the gate with the proudest big brother smile on my face watching him from across the field(if he knew i was there, i’d lose my element of “even though you don’t see me, i see everything you do.” lol). my mikey is finally growing up and he’s not doing too bad at it. although there are some times he catches that additude and i want to kick him in his throat….

but that’s 2 out of 4 little brothers headed in the right direction for their teenage years. my little washy is not too far behind, and my wayyy little samuel isn’t going to be a pain in my ass until im in my 30’s. …you have no idea how much i cringed that i’d be 30 lol…

but that’s all i ever wanted. yeah i’ll miss michael not coming to me that some bigger kids were messing with them and he wants me to handle it, but i know he got it. although, if he ever comes home with a non-football related bruise, some kid is getting his ass kicked lol.

i love you mikey!! keep on making me proud.

til next time. stay frosty

A LITTLE DIRECTION PLEASE…

Posted by ckashaan on May 23, 2012
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So totally made plans to go to the movies yesterday..finally..and it turned into more than movies? I don’t know what happened. Somehow just hanging out turned into a damn date. Not that it was bad because it was a whole lot of fun. My cheeks still hurt from all the smiling I did.

Yes that’s exactly why my cheeks hurt. My throat is a whole different story. Lol Im such a dirty boy.

But I don’t know what im doing with this guy now. When I met him, he was a straight guy who was kinda curious. He turned out to be really cool , since he didn’t come off as another guy trying to get into my pants, and I figured he’d be a really cool friend. I wasn’t wrong at all. Then my perception of him changed into a bi guy who’s really freaking curious…and kinda dirty-minded lol…but still only friends. And the more I got to know him, shit I kinda liked him more than that. So I told myself not to even come close to thinking anything could happen. A way to steer away from heartbreak again I guess.

And then last night happened..

It threw me like hardcore wtf?!? We’re categorizing this as a date? I mean shit, we hung out and it actually turned into what could be considered a date? Now my mind is all kinds of confused. If I keep my current mindset while he decides to try “us”, this will fail, we’re probably gonna stop talking, and im gonna lose a really cool friend because my emotional defenses are really good and im refusing to let myself like him. Or I try this out with him, it’ll go good or bad, but there’s a smaller chance of us falling out.

I just wish I knew with certainty what exactly was going on or what’s on his mind.

Before last night I had a perfect handle on things. But I don’t want to talk about it with him yet. Maybe after the potential 2nd “date” i’ll force myself to confront this. For now, its still just fun. Fun with a major cutie lol. A super nice, funny, and major cutie.

Til next time. Stay frosty.

EVERYONE NEEDS SOMEONE

Posted by ckashaan on November 9, 2010
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I still look back on the old me in junior high school like “what were you thinking?” I told myself that no matter what, I could do it all on my own. And believe it or not, I made the effort not to have friends. I hated almost everyone. Except the girl who I fell in love with(and I use that word with full meaning). It was like the biggest pain in the ass when the teachers assigned us group projects.

Like “bitch why you gotta be forcing us to communicate?” 

Of course I never got picked outright. I was always placed, bit I’d rather it that way because it made me feel like I was following my intentions. 

Then I got older. 

It’s impossible. It truly is. No one in this world can survive on their own. I realize that this day. This very day. I got to where I got by myself…all by myself. I don’t care what anyone says they think they did for me. I did do it alone. But up to a certain relatively recent point in my life, I have been lucky enough to befriend people who have come to aid me in my shortcomings. I wouldn’t be where I am now if it wasn’t for them. 

And you thought I was a self-centered jackass before I said that last part didn’t you?

And then people wonder why I place my friends above my family. Hello….they are actually there for me when I need them….and I try to make sure their concerns are not one-sided. 

But I gotta say, today was especially hard because financial support is something I refused to receive aid on. And this was my life test today. I was put in a situation where I really needed it and I was given an offer by a good friend. I swallowed my “do it alone” addittude, reluctantly, and accepted. Lol because I knew I’d almost never recover from this one alone.

But I love how life smacks my loner self in the face and says “go be a part of everybody. you have more to offer as they have what you may need.” 

So for all you loners out there, trust me I was you. A certain part of me is still you. But don’t hold on to thinking you can solve all your problems alone. No one was meant to stay alone. Life will drown you. 

Everyone needs someone. 

Til next time. Stay frosty.

IT’S THE ONE WHO’S DAMAGED

Posted by ckashaan on August 20, 2010
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Wowz. So I’m officially baq to blogging. I tried to return b4 but as I figured witout my itouch it was hard to hold my ideas and thoughts while I traveled during my day. But now, I’m just typin it in so I can post as soon as I get within range of sum good ol’ wifi. 

So first I bring in wuts new. I’m still workin at my wonderful job albeit under sumone who I couldve done witout…but disappointment is a part of life right? Also I’m tryin to permanently stay at my dad’s house but it’s hard to ask and wit all the stuff goin on between them, I’m afraid I might get a “no”. And me returning to skool is still a question…. And I have my eyes set hard on this guy I met at my friend’s bday party. He’s so cute and a good person. Plus he’s not one of those ghetto types which is awesome. Also my brothers have fully been assimilated into my life and I into their family’s. They r dying to meet my best friend though and I’m like I dun think he’s gonna come all the way out here anytime soon. 

So I hope that was a good enuf update 4 u. I was a little quick, but I dun wanna get sidetracked as I so often do. 

I have a question: y is it that we tend to b our most open and affectionate wit the ppl we adore when they r bein taken from or r leavin us? Like we stuff all the love we can into that moment and then get upset that “it’s not enuf time
“. Like 4 example one of the coworkers in my group had her last day 2day and I think I had the longest hug wit her that I evr had. I’m already an emotional person(and a cancer at that) so from time to time I do put my physical attention in, but I wanted to put in a really good one cuz I wont get the chance again. 

Ppl, in general, tend to take that the other persons know how special they r to them for granted. I’m guilty of it too so I’m not evn gonna try and defend myself. Wit my friends, the ones that I actually do care about and reciprocate the sentiment, I think about them like all the time. Like “I should send this one a message” or “I need to give this one a call” or “wut r they doin rite now?” but I almost nvr actually take the effort to reach out. You’d probably think my unwillingness to take action defines my tru value of the relationship, but I think my inner emotions more accurately defines it. Granted I have a crappy personality, but I still got alot of love. 

I think I shouldve made a resolution to outwardly depict my love more, but that’s such a contradictory action to my persona that it’d b highly difficult. Mayb evn TOO difficult. Like I think my bestest buddy in the whole world wouldn’t kno how important he was to me if it wasn’t for my twitter or blog cuz I’m just that introverted. 

I just wish I just had that ability that few ppl do to b more open. It damn sure ain’t easy. 

Wellz I got a thought off my head, put it onto a screen, and I’m almost home gettin off the bus. I think I’m baq to my old self. 

Til next time. Stay frosty.

AS THE YEAR’S END, WE NOTICE A YEAR OF THINGS TO BE THANKFUL FOR

Posted by ckashaan on December 24, 2009
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lol this will not b like my thanksgiving post, but more like a general feeling post. of course living another yr, ive come across things that im so happy to have recieved, things so happy to have given, ppl so happy to have met…but thats a long list to make. so ill just not. (ill put a list at the end of the post)

but wow, christmas at my dad’s house. i gotta say i ended up staying here longer than i expected. wayyy longer. and im so apprehensive to b spending christmas here. they really go all out. when i was younger, we didnt do all this. i asked 4 wut i wanted, my mom ordered it, the box sat in my room til christmas(11:59…i cheated cuz i wanted to start playin wit it on christmas and it took me about a minute to open evrythin), then i opened it and played. went to sleep and woke up in the morning and it was just another day in the house. not too frantic or anything.

here, they set up lights outside and on the lawn. decorated inside the house. wrapped gifts(also y im nervous to b here). makin a meal thingy. they go all out much. its wierd to me. mayb that might make me sound all scrouge-ish, but i havent had christmas like this since i was a kid and i kindof like it like that. this is wut happens when ur an only child and ur parent is out workin all the time. u learn to luv urself(omg. that last sentence reminded me of a paper i wrote 4 english. i think i might type it up and post it on here.).

but the gifts…omfg. i like really really hope i didnt get anything. cuz i am/was f-ing broke.(college is a bitch to my wallet) so im like wtf do i do? i dont have the money to buy gifts like that… first christmas here = cory’s fail.__ i couldnt even afford to buy myself sumthin like i usually do. at least one thing. but i did buy cards. and i came with the coolest thoughtful idea, that might make evryone happy… inside the cards, imma have like “certificates” for a specific service that imma offer to them. itll b cool, well i hope so. i dont usually “think” about buyin gifts, usually i let my money tlk 4 me. ..spoken like a tru spoiled kid.. but its tru. unless i really like u, then i get like confuzzled with wut to buy 4 u cuz i want u to really enjoy it.

but i guess this can b more genuine(icky icky deep feelings). i guess ill let u guys kno how it all turned out.

oh and of course i can always count on my mom to get me wut i want 4 christmas as always. she buyin my hard drive 4 my 360 and takin me shoppin. yaay!! i luv my 360 and i luv shoppin 4 clothes ..spoken like a tru shopaholic :cough: gay :cough: lol.. but imma have a re-christmas when i move baq home cuz i cant wait to go baq to my materialistic-ness to help shield my extreme vulnerability that i only display to a select few of my closest friends. luv u guys much.

well merry christmas to all ye readers. i luv havin u guys around cuz even though id still post without u, i feel grateful its goin into sumone’s ears …so to speak…

so til next time. stay frosty.

p.s. ive been poppin eclipse mints all day. i think im crazy.

p.s.s here’s the list of thankful things:

  • meeting people
  • joel and kiana
  • camille(u and ur thunder thighs lol)
  • luan(e.v. master lol. i challenge u again one day and ur a funny vid maker all that diva in one person)
  • john (omg i met u on live, but ur an awesome dude)
  • things
  • my laptop cooler
  • my wireless adapter
  • my dragon painting
  • my dragon tattoo(hurt like a mudabitch)
  • my new ds(its my baby lol)
edit: i havnt done html in like a million yrs, so im pretty proud of myself 4 bein able to pull off this list