Wowz. So I’m officially baq to blogging. I tried to return b4 but as I figured witout my itouch it was hard to hold my ideas and thoughts while I traveled during my day. But now, I’m just typin it in so I can post as soon as I get within range of sum good ol’ wifi.
So first I bring in wuts new. I’m still workin at my wonderful job albeit under sumone who I couldve done witout…but disappointment is a part of life right? Also I’m tryin to permanently stay at my dad’s house but it’s hard to ask and wit all the stuff goin on between them, I’m afraid I might get a “no”. And me returning to skool is still a question…. And I have my eyes set hard on this guy I met at my friend’s bday party. He’s so cute and a good person. Plus he’s not one of those ghetto types which is awesome. Also my brothers have fully been assimilated into my life and I into their family’s. They r dying to meet my best friend though and I’m like I dun think he’s gonna come all the way out here anytime soon.
So I hope that was a good enuf update 4 u. I was a little quick, but I dun wanna get sidetracked as I so often do.
I have a question: y is it that we tend to b our most open and affectionate wit the ppl we adore when they r bein taken from or r leavin us? Like we stuff all the love we can into that moment and then get upset that “it’s not enuf time
“. Like 4 example one of the coworkers in my group had her last day 2day and I think I had the longest hug wit her that I evr had. I’m already an emotional person(and a cancer at that) so from time to time I do put my physical attention in, but I wanted to put in a really good one cuz I wont get the chance again.
Ppl, in general, tend to take that the other persons know how special they r to them for granted. I’m guilty of it too so I’m not evn gonna try and defend myself. Wit my friends, the ones that I actually do care about and reciprocate the sentiment, I think about them like all the time. Like “I should send this one a message” or “I need to give this one a call” or “wut r they doin rite now?” but I almost nvr actually take the effort to reach out. You’d probably think my unwillingness to take action defines my tru value of the relationship, but I think my inner emotions more accurately defines it. Granted I have a crappy personality, but I still got alot of love.
I think I shouldve made a resolution to outwardly depict my love more, but that’s such a contradictory action to my persona that it’d b highly difficult. Mayb evn TOO difficult. Like I think my bestest buddy in the whole world wouldn’t kno how important he was to me if it wasn’t for my twitter or blog cuz I’m just that introverted.
I just wish I just had that ability that few ppl do to b more open. It damn sure ain’t easy.
Wellz I got a thought off my head, put it onto a screen, and I’m almost home gettin off the bus. I think I’m baq to my old self.
Til next time. Stay frosty.