“Who does a man love more? The woman he lies to or the woman he tells the truth to?”
An open ended debate. Do I care more because I tried to protect you? Do I care more because I gave you honesty, even if it hurt you?
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2 things inspired this post. First was a discussion with my awesome coworker who has been training and teaching me. The other was this bitch who decided to pop off at the mouth about how picking up her kid’s puke was not her job.
Well it ain’t mine either you uppity, cunt-faced whore. Continue Reading
I’m only as strong as the event that didn’t break me. My strength is not determined by what I think, but it is determined by what I live through. My resolve will faulter with the moment that I fall to my knees and declare a defeat too big to move past.
It will happen one day.
I hope that this is not that day.
Because this is a defeat I could not make it past.
Til next time. Stay frosty.
So totally made plans to go to the movies yesterday..finally..and it turned into more than movies? I don’t know what happened. Somehow just hanging out turned into a damn date. Not that it was bad because it was a whole lot of fun. My cheeks still hurt from all the smiling I did.
Yes that’s exactly why my cheeks hurt. My throat is a whole different story. Lol Im such a dirty boy.
But I don’t know what im doing with this guy now. When I met him, he was a straight guy who was kinda curious. He turned out to be really cool , since he didn’t come off as another guy trying to get into my pants, and I figured he’d be a really cool friend. I wasn’t wrong at all. Then my perception of him changed into a bi guy who’s really freaking curious…and kinda dirty-minded lol…but still only friends. And the more I got to know him, shit I kinda liked him more than that. So I told myself not to even come close to thinking anything could happen. A way to steer away from heartbreak again I guess.
And then last night happened..
It threw me like hardcore wtf?!? We’re categorizing this as a date? I mean shit, we hung out and it actually turned into what could be considered a date? Now my mind is all kinds of confused. If I keep my current mindset while he decides to try “us”, this will fail, we’re probably gonna stop talking, and im gonna lose a really cool friend because my emotional defenses are really good and im refusing to let myself like him. Or I try this out with him, it’ll go good or bad, but there’s a smaller chance of us falling out.
I just wish I knew with certainty what exactly was going on or what’s on his mind.
Before last night I had a perfect handle on things. But I don’t want to talk about it with him yet. Maybe after the potential 2nd “date” i’ll force myself to confront this. For now, its still just fun. Fun with a major cutie lol. A super nice, funny, and major cutie.
Til next time. Stay frosty.
lol this will not b like my thanksgiving post, but more like a general feeling post
. of course living another yr, ive come across things that im so happy to have recieved, things so happy to have given, ppl so happy to have met…but thats a long list to make. so ill just not
. (ill put a list at the end of the post
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but wow, christmas at my dad’s house. i gotta say i ended up staying here longer than i expected. wayyy longer
. and im so apprehensive to b spending christmas here. they really go all out. when i was younger, we didnt do all this. i asked 4 wut i wanted, my mom ordered it, the box sat in my room til christmas(11:59…i cheated cuz i wanted to start playin wit it on christmas and it took me about a minute to open evrythin
), then i opened it and played. went to sleep and woke up in the morning and it was just another day in the house. not too frantic or anything
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here, they set up lights outside and on the lawn. decorated inside the house. wrapped gifts(also y im nervous to b here). makin a meal thingy. they go all out much. its wierd to me
. mayb that might make me sound all scrouge-ish, but i havent had christmas like this since i was a kid and i kindof like it like that. this is wut happens when ur an only child and ur parent is out workin all the time. u learn to luv urself(omg. that last sentence reminded me of a paper i wrote 4 english. i think i might type it up and post it on here.).
but the gifts…omfg. i like really really hope i didnt get anything. cuz i am/was f-ing broke.(college is a bitch to my wallet
) so im like wtf do i do? i dont have the money to buy gifts like that… first christmas here = cory’s fail.__ i couldnt even afford to buy myself sumthin like i usually do. at least one thing. but i did buy cards. and i came with the coolest thoughtful idea, that might make evryone happy… inside the cards, imma have like “certificates” for a specific service that imma offer to them. itll b cool, well i hope so. i dont usually “think” about buyin gifts, usually i let my money tlk 4 me. ..spoken like a tru spoiled kid.. but its tru. unless i really like u, then i get like confuzzled with wut to buy 4 u cuz i want u to really enjoy it
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but i guess this can b more genuine(icky icky deep feelings). i guess ill let u guys kno how it all turned out.
oh and of course i can always count on my mom to get me wut i want 4 christmas as always. she buyin my hard drive 4 my 360 and takin me shoppin. yaay!! i luv my 360 and i luv shoppin 4 clothes ..spoken like a tru shopaholic :cough: gay :cough: lol.. but imma have a re-christmas when i move baq home cuz i cant wait to go baq to my materialistic-ness to help shield my extreme vulnerability that i only display to a select few of my closest friends. luv u guys much.
well merry christmas to all ye readers. i luv havin u guys around cuz even though id still post without u, i feel grateful its goin into sumone’s ears …so to speak…
so til next time. stay frosty.
p.s. ive been poppin eclipse mints all day. i think im crazy.
p.s.s here’s the list of thankful things:
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