So totally made plans to go to the movies yesterday..finally..and it turned into more than movies? I don’t know what happened. Somehow just hanging out turned into a damn date. Not that it was bad because it was a whole lot of fun. My cheeks still hurt from all the smiling I did.
Yes that’s exactly why my cheeks hurt. My throat is a whole different story. Lol Im such a dirty boy.
But I don’t know what im doing with this guy now. When I met him, he was a straight guy who was kinda curious. He turned out to be really cool , since he didn’t come off as another guy trying to get into my pants, and I figured he’d be a really cool friend. I wasn’t wrong at all. Then my perception of him changed into a bi guy who’s really freaking curious…and kinda dirty-minded lol…but still only friends. And the more I got to know him, shit I kinda liked him more than that. So I told myself not to even come close to thinking anything could happen. A way to steer away from heartbreak again I guess.
And then last night happened..
It threw me like hardcore wtf?!? We’re categorizing this as a date? I mean shit, we hung out and it actually turned into what could be considered a date? Now my mind is all kinds of confused. If I keep my current mindset while he decides to try “us”, this will fail, we’re probably gonna stop talking, and im gonna lose a really cool friend because my emotional defenses are really good and im refusing to let myself like him. Or I try this out with him, it’ll go good or bad, but there’s a smaller chance of us falling out.
I just wish I knew with certainty what exactly was going on or what’s on his mind.
Before last night I had a perfect handle on things. But I don’t want to talk about it with him yet. Maybe after the potential 2nd “date” i’ll force myself to confront this. For now, its still just fun. Fun with a major cutie lol. A super nice, funny, and major cutie.
Til next time. Stay frosty.
Boi Growing Up 