I walked into work today to hear some upsetting news while in the middle of a assignment. The other temp worker that got hired with me was let go. Yesterday was the last day I’d ever see him. I didn’t even get to really say goodbye.
And it was my own damn fault. Continue Reading
well i’ve done it. i’m hitched up again. i’ve been taken off, or rather i put myself off, the dating market and a really awesome guy now has me all to himself. i’m pretty damn lucky.
can’t lie. i had my apprehensions about choosing this direction, but i’m in it for the long haul, and i’m excited to see where this goes. and slowly, but surely, my feelings for mike are starting to dissipate. although on our first official date of the relationship there were too many damn references to him. major issues with that. like i don’t want to have to be reminded of mike when i’m with ken. bad enough they’re both muscular irish guys lol.
but i like ken alot. im at a point in my life right now where my boyfriend has to also be my close friend. he is that to me very well and it’s what i appreciate the most. we just gotta work on his jokes lol. i guess the only part that concerns me, which didn’t with my last “infatuation” lol, is that i don’t see my “end goal senario” with him in it yet. it’s only one concern, but it’s a pretty big one to me.
maybe my expectations are too high. maybe i just need to be patient. i mean, look how long i took to make this decision and he almost seriously messed up
. i’ll be patient. i’m young. why is my mind so constantly that far ahead anyway. hmmm, kenneth did say maybe i need to think more short-term. ❤
lol this is also the first time i’ve used a smiley in the title.
til next time. stay frosty
Im trying. Im trying so hard to change. I don’t want to be going around randomly hooking up with other people. Im trying so damn hard to settle down because its what I want and yet shit is going terribly.
I’ve been chilling with a bi guy for a really long time that I started to really like and yet I’ve have a crush that agreed to go on a date with me. I can’t pick. In a perfect world I’d date them both, but alas I must pick.
Im the kind of person that takes commitments very seriously. It has to be long term minded for me to even consider it. I’ve only been in 3 relationships, with the exception of one, all lasted longer than a year. Especially since im older now. I want someone I can just call my own. That one to confide in, to come home to in the future. Support me while I run at my career. In maybe 5 or 6 years adopting a kid or two. It takes too much energy not letting yourself fall for someone. Not letting them in. Just telling yourself “its just sex”.
And besides its a really bad example for my little brothers.
I just need to find someone on my level of seriousness. And while I like both of these guys alot, they could be either way for me. Long term or temporary. Only because I’ve known one for so long I know his intentions and the other its too soon to tell but has the criteria.
And they’re both hella cute lol.
:sigh: I don’t know what im going to do with myself. Im such a hot mess right now. Well a cute hot mess since I’ve done all my grooming lol.
This is just one more thing to drive me crazy.
Til next time. Stay frosty.
Boi Growing Up 