WHO LIED TO YOU? MONEY CERTAINLY DOES BUY HAPPINESS

Posted by ckashaan on November 3, 2014
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Listening to “Shopaholic” by Epik High while on the way home and a line in the song really stuck out to me. It was in the midst of the lyrics cycling between korean and english. The line was “..but you can’t but love or happiness.” That aroused a vivid mental emotional response. I will wholeheartedly agree that you can’t buy love with money. I concede in that argument all the way. You can definitely influence others into feeling something like love for you with money, but not actual genuine emotion. What you will not do, is sit there and tell me money can’t buy you happiness.

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WE HIDE OUR TRUE COLORS

Posted by ckashaan on November 2, 2014
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What is it about our secrets that causes us to hide them from the world? In and of themselves, they are just bits of information. Snippets of knowledge belonging to a larger context. Knowledge has no description except it is attributed to something else. Why does information about ourselves invoke feelings? Does a stop sign being red make you feel ashamed? Worried? Aren’t our secrets, by technicality, the same likeness of the color of the sign?

Why then do we hide our “colors”?

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COMING OUT AGAIN

Posted by ckashaan on October 31, 2014
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..Caution. This may be a long one..

I have a heavy burden upon me as this week closes. It resides in the back of my mind accompanying every thought. It lays its head upon my very soul. I have the highly stressful task of coming out to my younger brothers this weekend. Yes, I am happy they are finally at the age where, according to their mom, they are old enough to understand. Yes, I am scared shitless because I am an over-thinker that always instantly extrapolates the outcome of a situation to be the worst imaginable. Yes, I know it has to be done eventually.

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IT’S NEVER OUR OWN FAULT

Posted by ckashaan on October 30, 2014
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You ever seem to notice that when something goes wrong, people, or you yourself if you’re willing to accept that, tend to blame the other person or the situation? Like it’s very rare that we instantly find that the fault is with ourselves for that moment. It is impossible to that we can cause our own wrongdoing. We are never to blame. We are perfect.

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I CONTAIN NO IMAGINATION IN THE VESSEL OF MY SOUL

Posted by ckashaan on October 29, 2014
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Largely inspired by a conversation I had prior to sitting and posting tonight, I had a moment of inner reflection. I have always said that I have no imagination. I believe it wholeheartedly.

I also hate writing. Don’t ask me how I have a blog then, let alone a third one. It’s one of the hypocrisies in my head.
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OMG I THINK I’M A GENDER CONFORMIST

Posted by ckashaan on October 27, 2014
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I was, afterwards, ashamed of a thought in my head while my 4 year old nephew was playing with his little piano toy. It was some Cheetah Girls pink leopard spotted thing with songs from the movie amd a microphone. The first thing in my head was “Why did my sister buy this girly thing for him? Couldn’t they find some blue piano with songs?” Then it was “How can I stop my little nephew from playing with such a girly looking toy?” I am a horrible individual. Especially identifying within the LGTBQ community, I lose extra points in the karma circle of goodness.

Yes, I saw the movie when I was a kid.

Yes, I realize it’s probably a “cheetah” print and not a leopard.

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