The week starts. The morning starts. I wake up, get dressed, make my way out the door to the place that allows me to live. The place that allows me to manifest this lifestyle. The place that takes away the very energy I need to live, while giving me the means to live. Putting me in the company of, what undoubtedly seems to be, the very future ahead of me. Breakfast time comes and goes. Lunchtime comes and goes. It approaches the rush hour. My labor is no longer required. I am released from the slavery born of my own volition.
Live a day in my life.
Everyone has a reason for continuing on this long journey of indeterminate length, until the end, called life. Whether it be money, love, kids, or some abstract dream to achieve. Mine is so much more delicate and easily fragmented than that. Everyone has a reason. For that push. A motivation behind every step. An ethereal hand that tugs on the their shirt leading them away from the abyss.
Mine is just a hooked finger as I lean over looking for a reason to let go. Continue Reading
Normally I don’t post on the weekends since I’m usually on my xbox and not my laptop, but I was reading this article on ny phone. It was shared, by the Buddhism page I follow on Facebook. Haha, I like to learn in my spirituality everywhere.
It is about the top regrets people have at the end of their lives.
The uncorruptible. Incorruptible? Non-corrupting? Corruption immune? However you correctly say it, they are what exist in society as those that can not be influenced by outside sources. We are talking about the pure ones walking into those “not so pure” situations.
I was having this conversation with a friend of mine a while ago and the subject came up again. We were talking about the whole controversy with the police in the NYPD here and stuff. ..for the sake of a “tension free zone” for a while, I’m not going to be directly weighing in on that kind of stuff here. yet.. He said something very interesting that I didn’t think about before. You can go into the police force with the best intentions. The academy is filled with recruits just wanting to do good. But you get 2 outcomes with that. You can either join in on the underground things going on, be part of the group, fit in and become the very thing you tried to avoid. Or you can go against the status quo, attempt to hold on to your ethics, and suffer being an outcast or black-balled and distrusted. You can’t jump in mud and not get dirt on your shoes. You can never beat peer pressure.
Think about that for a second. “You can never beat peer pressure.” Continue Reading
I think that caption sums up my life right now. I have a job I like albeit temporary, I got a decent income flow, my siblings are happy, I have a schedule that keeps me ridiculously busy during the day so I’m never bored, starting a new business flow, and I don’t really have any problems. I know saying that just now was a pretty major jinx, but still saying it.
Life is good.
I don’t know how long it’ll last, but it is good.
I make a statement about my life. I have absolutely no regrets about anything. Not one single thing. Everything bad that has happened in my life, everything bad that I have done, and everything bad that will happen has caused no feelings of the need for repentence in my soul.
Maybe my view of life is too skewed, but I think that’s valid for me. Continue Reading