like really. of all the high paying jobs my mind is qualified for and i picked the one least likely to lead me in a very profitable life
. but wut the hell? i luv it
. i often get questioned y would i pick this profession, especially with all the trouble in it. but 2 things really stick out in my head. y i luv it and wut scares me the most about it.
i guess we’ll start with y i luv it.
duh im a pretty patient person. more than most r with the little ones. which i also think speaks alot for wut im gonna b doin wit the rest of my life cuz thats needed much. but i really like the idea of bein a positive influential part of another kid’s life. like, ive gone through skool. nvr wanted to b there of course. but with evry skool ive been too, i can pick out the teacher who made such a big difference in my experience there. made me want to learn. made me want to better my mind. and effectively helped cultivate the semi-genius b4 u today
.(i kno that sounded oh so conceded…) i just want to b wut those ppl were to me for the next kid. like a passing of knowledge and compassion. mayb thats y ive crammed so much random knowledge in my head cuz i dish it out evrywhere i can. not in a “i kno more than u way” but more of a “take this i, absorb it, and use it for urself”. i think the perfect comparison would b to the book The Giver. they stopped readin it in skool about when i was there so if u havent read it, i highly recommend it
. well in a nutshell, thats my motive.
moving on to my fear about it.
imma just lose it. im probably like the most textbook case passive aggressive person youll meet. totally. i will take shit and take and take then blow up later. this is y, as a precaution, i do things to let off steam. that built up pressure. i blog, i workout, and i play handball. which is y i think i hit the ball extremely hard when i just let go. like my mind has an auto vent switch that goes off sometimes witout me noticing. which now u probably c my worry. wut if that were to happen when im wit a kid or sumthin
. besides looking bad, it can b highly destructive and id rather not voluntarily put another person in the blast radius of my explosions. ive already had my little bro in the ring of a little one and it will nvr happen again
. but i just worry about when i run out of outlets….
all in all. its wut i do. ive been teaching since i had the knowledge to pass. and i think im one of those ppl who will die teaching. and i mean that in evry sense of the word
. theres nuthin else i imagine myself doing forever. and lol, if u notice i didnt mention anythin about me bein mad broke on my mind about this job. yea, givin my lifestyle it surprises me too
. and the gay thing…ill deal with later. besides they wont need to kno. my kids dun kno now lolz
til next time. stay frosty
Boi Growing Up 