i wonder sumtimes where im gonna end up in life. especially now that i found sumthin i wanna do, im not sure i can pull it off. well look at my life so far… i wanted to do business and i got a great job workin at chase. high paying and workkin with all high level executives. then i leave, partly cuz of skool, but also cuz it got boring. next i wanted to do engineering.  i get into a transfer program at skool. start takin mad adv classes cuz i wanted them out the way. then i start losing interest and hanging out more and started failing evrything.

plus that dude was mad mean.

then i hit my crossroads. wut do i truely want to do with my life? where do i c myself settling in the future?

then i started  my afterschool extension at work. my  firsthand workin experience workin in a school. wit the little kids and stuff. it was a total eye-opening thingy. i always had teaching in the baq of my head, but that was just cuz i was a tutor for like evr and i figured worst comes to worst, i could pull this off.

keep in mind for this next part, i nvr tutored kids. i was strictly against it. lol…

then i got an offer to teach my lil bros in eng(a subject i have no experience in teaching at all. i kno it well though). which was funny cuz i told him i was a math and science tutor, but now i entered into new territory on 2 lvls. but their age falls into the age i wanna teach anyway. preemptive teaching test sign perhaps?

so i went hard for it. determined not to mess this up.. total immersion into the work. and i come to find i luv it. take my luv of teaching, plus my luv of kids, plus my need to make a difference in sumthin and u get my profession. albeit the least financial rewarding of evrythin else i tried lol. plus one of my friends already started takin education classes b4 me told me about all the field u have to do for each class and i was like “omg much.” but my desire didnt flinch. my mind didnt instantly switch to “lets pick sumthin else again” and it kept thinkin about my future in the classroom. after all this time, i finally get wut i wanna do and im happy about it. i can only hope that it doesnt change.

and if i end up like this old guy im seein in mcdonalds, imma just kill myself. sittin in that booth forever drunk and drugged up is not acceptable at al…

oh and if u cant figure it out, i wanna do elementary education. they r hella fun and u get room to b really creative and they give u the cutest gifts evr. i have evryone i evr got in my room lol. i luv my job.

til next time. stay frosty.

p.s. and if Rice doesnt start postin on the joint blog, imma kill him. i cant manage 2 blogs on my own…