is this all life is? is that all friendship is? a series of choices and ur friends so long as u both make the same ones together. then is it over at the first fork? the first split decision? and is the value of the friendship measured by how many concurrent choices you’ve made together?
is this all u valued our friendship to b? all this time were u really only measuring u and our relationship to me and his? who knew eachother longer…decided together longer. and r u really willing to walk away from our brief but concentrated discovery and interaction with eachother?….just because i knew him longer? it’s said “a gay friend is a grl’s best accessory”(taken right off the tyra banks show) but a best grl is also a gay’s best companion(that’s mine. a derivative of the original phrase. …and yes jon i kno, ill get to u another time but this is a little more pressing). like omg, u were my best grl.
and mayb im being stupid and naive, but i damn sure measured our friendship beyond time, if i had to say how i would measure it. how close we got, how natural we were with eachother. shit, i even told u my biggest secret b4 i told jason cuz i considered u so close to me. to even give me a lame reason like that i guess kindof annoys me if not hurts me. time. just time. nothing else…only time.
u once told me that u couldnt b upset with me for more than a couple of min. i hope thats tru in this case too.
til next time. stay frosty
i promise next post will b the one i meant it to b. “MY BIGGEST FEAR”
First of all, in my opinion, I do not think that we have many real friends in life. My problem was and is that I am not friendly and prefer a more private life. I had 2 friends. One in high school who dumped me because I would not go to his junior college (fork in the road). Then my best adult friend died a few years ago. I sobbed at his death. I have been married to Norma 53 years and know her 58. She is a friend of course, but it seems more than that because we have also been lovers all that time with sex starting after marriage.frank