so i was wondering a while ago, is it possible to b nice and a jerk. ive been doubting my own genuine “niceness” when sumone told me im too nice. i thought to myself, “can i really actually b this authentic”. “could it b that im just bein nice to get wut i want?” i inquired with my buddy and he set me straight. now tell me if u agree with this: “it doesnt matter if why ur nice as long as the other person is receiving it”. it gave me the feelin of “ends justify the means”, to me its kind of a selfish if ur only bein nice to sumone to get sumthin from them. and i dont fully agree wit that, but in this sitch i have to concur. and then i stopped worryin about it. but my word is my genuinity, i never do anything without meanin it fully. to me there is no such thing as “nice, but with an agenda.” ur either one or the other, no in between.
on another note, i guess i will b postin more lol.mayb start bloggin bout sum actual topics than ranting here all the time. i guess it took a person to get me to realize y i started this page in the first place. 1. to vent my stresses startin out in high school. 2. to get advice on little shit that i couldnt solve on my own. 3. to try and b “cool” and 4. cuz i like havein web pages and stuff. i swear i luv her more and more each day(i mean that in the most un-romantic way. but in a nice way) for keepin me in my zone and happy.
till next time. stay frosty.