Boi Growing Up

got sum really surprising news last night and its not good. one of my bestest friends called me and told me he was havin sum probs. so we talked and then he let out that he just failed in tryin to kill himself. i was silent for like a min cuz i really didnt kno wut to say. then he said sumthin else, i knew to try and get my mind off it. but throughout the convo i couldnt. i started to wonder wut my life would b like if i suddenly lost him. i mean he’s been with me through alot these yrs. it almost hurt that he would leave me by myself. i hate to admit it, but a tear left my eye this morning on my way to skool. and u kno i dun cry over anything, im that good at holdin emotion. but im not sure id b able to handle myself anymore.

dude, youve been there for evrything. handling me wit my mom. many nights on xbl. damn, if it wasnt for u i wouldnt have had the courage to move foward wit my new self this far. just knoin u were ok wit it gave me the courage to move foward with my new life dude. i can only say, if u leave me now, i swear when i die imma come to u and kick the shit out of ur soul…..and i mean that in the nicest way possible.

but in other news….i really need to learn when to keep my mouth shut. i hold my opinions baq just for this reason, so i dun get involved and im not forced to pick sides. as long as “switzerland” is strong enough to withstand “attacks” from both sides my mentality is safe.

and to my new visitor. hello. i hope u have an ok experience here lol. welcome to one part of my life that u have left to learn about. arent  glad i put a message here just for u?

well, till next time, stay frosty ppl

and i promise to stop bein so emo and make happier posts.