do u ever wish, in a fight bewteen 2 friends, that u could pick a side and the other person wouldn’t feel offended that u didnt choose theirs? or mayb is it better to stay neutral and delegate to try to keep control? but wut happens when neither of these things r an option? wut happens when u cant choose a side cuz they’re both wrong(or right) and stayin neutral offers no real benefit at all to the situation? …then it all ends up going downhill and there’s nothing u can do to stop it.

as i type this now, i feel as though i failed those close to me. like i was useless meat sitting there as my 2 friends clipped their bond of the triangle. (now im just the connecting angle between 2 lines. do u kno how freakin crappy that feels) if anything in this world ever has the capacity to hurt me, it’s knoing that i cant keep my friends from hating eachother(mayb hate is too strong but u get wut i mean) y isnt there a solution to this? and if there is, y cant i find it already so this chaos can end? i guess life is weird like this where sumtimes, no matter how hard u try, there r just some things that u cant control.

but f that. (i feel the need to purge atm) i havent failed yet. i refuse to b in this situation for the second time this yr. forced to choose who to hang with on my free time, forced to pick who to tlk to. y must switzerland always b in the middle? taking hits on both sides. fightin eachother in my territory. this time imma b neutral, but from across the river….actually across the fucking ocean. for once in my life, im not gonna try to fix it. imma just let nature take its course and ill follow where it takes me. and lol, i can always just beat up crap in soul caliber to relieve the tension.

til next time. stay frosty