“have a good life, its been a blast” i say to my graduating senior friends
“see u next yr” i say to my junior friends
i kno its only about a two month break, but im missing u guys already 
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so today wuz the last day of school. we had no classes, just the school wuz givin review sessions for the diff regents test. i went to earthsci review(im not in earthsci, i wuz just visitin) and bio review(i hadnt had class for 2 years, i wanna get the grade i shouldve gotten
). went on an adventure wit tony in school. it wuz funny. dun wry dude im not tellin
. ran into umid and ken in the lunchroom.
school ended about 11:30. so we left. i wanted to play ken again, but another time. saw william cheng outside. so me, umid, and cheng decided to go play handball. we had alot of time to kill. invited tony, but he had to study for the math b regent tomorrow(hope u do really good dude. get higher than me. im pullin for u
). little cropsey wuz crowded so we walked to Cavallaro’s park. when we got there, a court wuz open. then the other group left so we had both courts. and we had two balls…wut could be better
.
i played umid, then i played cheng, then i played them both…yea i kept winnin, so i went on the other side and practiced. this azn kid from dewey came by and played me. he won, but he didnt wanna take the court so i played the next kid that came, and won…then another, and won…then an azn trio, won them all…(i kno i couldnt really have gotten this good
). then sum short azn kid, and won…then played doubles wit sum grls…and won, then played this kid named thomas, i won and kicked his ass. then the azn kid wuz like how come ur playin so hard against evryone and not me. i wuz like cuz im playin to keep my court duh
. so he played me, and he won but left with thomas so i still had my court. basically i had court til bout 3:40.
then sum white kid from cav came and beat me for court
. yes i kno i lost to a jhs kid and he wuz seriously about a third my size, but this kid couldve probably beaten anyone i’ve ever played
. yes mok, even u. i wuz just barely hangin on to try and keep my court. i lost and i didnt have the energy, or will, to get the court back so we left. u shouldve came tony, i wondered who wouldve won
. and im gonna get u to start playin garvin
that wuz my day, how wuz yours?
so today wuz the last day of school. we had no classes, just the school wuz givin review sessions for the diff regents test. i went to earthsci review(im not in earthsci, i wuz just visitin) and bio review(i hadnt had class for 2 years, i wanna get the grade i shouldve gotten). went on an adventure wit tony in school. it wuz funny. dun wry dude im not tellin. ran into umid and ken in the lunchroom. school ended about 11:30. so we left. i wanted to play ken again, but another time. saw william cheng outside. so me, umid, and cheng decided to go play handball. we had alot of time to kill. invited tony, but he had to study for the math b regent tomorrow(hope u do really good dude. get higher than me. im pullin for u). little cropsey wuz crowded so we walked to Cavallaro’s park. when we got there, a court wuz open. then the other group left so we had both courts. and we had two balls…wut could be better. i played umid, then i played cheng, then i played them both…yea i kept winnin, so i went on the other side and practiced. this azn kid from dewey came by and played me. he won, but he didnt wanna take the court so i played the next kid that came, and won…then another, and won…then an azn trio, won them all…(i kno i couldnt really have gotten this good). then sum short azn kid, and won…then played doubles wit sum grls…and won, then played this kid named thomas, i won and kicked his ass. then the azn kid wuz like how come ur playin so hard against evryone and not me. i wuz like cuz im playin to keep my court duh. so he played me, and he won but left with thomas so i still had my court. basically i had court til bout 3:40. then sum white kid from cav came and beat me for court. yes i kno i lost to a jhs kid and he wuz seriously about a third my size, but this kid couldve probably beaten anyone i’ve ever played. yes mok, even u. i wuz just barely hangin on to try and keep my court. i lost and i didnt have the energy, or will, to get the court back so we left. u shouldve came tony, i wondered who wouldve won. and im gonna get u to start playin garvin that wuz my day, how wuz yours?
took the SAT today. is it wierd that i actually had fun taking it. i hope i got at least 1900. buit i think my scored ranged from a 1850-2000(i think im overestimating it)afterwards i played ken at the school court in handball. i owned him in the first game and then watched him play umid. like an idiot i played him again and i hurt my arm. i had to rush the game so i kindof threw it cuz i didnt wanna waste my power on him. i feel kindof bad about it now. then went to cropsey with tony and will. will kicked my ass the first game, but it wuz all good. i needed a game to get arm back in shape. it wuz hurtin, but cant let it show. then played wit will for mad games. of course we kept winnin. wut did u expect? then i came home and collapsed on my couch cuz all my muscles were so tight and i got a really bad leg cramp. ttyl
“If you could do it over again, start from scratch, would you?”
a question that came up while i wuz doin a quiz/survey on myspace(alot of inspiration i see comes from there)i would have usually just answered “no” but my mind got stuck on this question and i couldnt decide. i eventually said no, but part of me still says yes.
a part of me says yes because of all the mistakes ive made during the past, all the things ive missed out on. the people i shouldve opened up to and those i shouldve held back from. it makes u wonder if u could start from scratch would u be able to do it perfect? would u be able to direct your pathway to return to a point that u r happy with? u would then have the ability to make yourself perfectly happy. im sure sum of u r sayin theres no such thing as perfect happiness, but i think there is. when you come to a point where everything in the past has perfectly come together with your present circumstances to create harmony and peace. that is perfect happiness.
then there is the argument that perfect happiness isnt dictated but coincidental. there’s no way u can determine when youll be happy until youve hit it and it passed on by. as you can tell by how far of a tangent off i went, i have alot on my mind. but to relate it to the original question, if happiness comes from past and present and your happy now, wut if u got rid of or smoothed out those rocky points in your past
. would you still be happy when you reach this point again or may sumthin else happen that u might not be ready for because you didnt have it happen to u in the past. ur past determines how youll be in the future or “now”. what if i start over and make different choices that dont lead me to the point where i meet the same people later in life. if anyone ever asks me “who influences u to be the way u r?”, ill give this answer always with 6 people in mind, “my friends would be the ones to influence me the most. im not sure wut i would do without them”. if it wuznt for them, in my mind i see a totally different person. i would probably not be that same oreo, kpop listenin, guitar rockin, easygoin person before u. i couldve been a much more ghetto kid today(another story, another time).
my last thought, i promise, is this: we seem to overlook wut happende to us in the passed whether its good or bad. our whole lifes determines who we r, wut we like, wut kindo f people we cant stand, even how we perform the simplest task. im not sure if i would wanna take the risk of messing up wut i have now to start over from the beginning.
wut r your opinions on this questions?…im just curious. good night everybody
im such a biter right now(“biter” is a slang term for those of u wondering), but i wuz readin sumthin and i just wanna make a couple of comments, since alot of this is wut i have been thinkin lately. i guess Cooley’s theory of “the looking glas self”(sociology class lesson). we tend to live our lives based on wut your common person is thinking and/or how they react to you. perceivance of yourself based on outside appearance….but im digressin. anyway 1st quote:
my elder bro once said–“…Isn’t that what love does to you? well, it’s bright side. It makes you feel so supreme, so whole, so ultimate, so great, as if you have everything you could ever want….”–and its weird because i think i have fallen in love with a girl i’ve known for a long time. everytime im around her i get this feelin that nothing can stop me and its just me and her. the whole world stops for us
. but it scares me because our friendship is so good and i dun want to ruin that. ive seen other relationships where a breakup can really ruin the bond u have
.
2nd quote:
my older bro also once said–“…Some say it’s bad to let someone know you inside and out because they can use that against you….”–for the most part of my mature, comprehensible life i’ve practically lived by this doctrine. ive never let anyone get close enough to kno any weaknesses or short-comings. nothin that could faulter my appearance. i just wanted to blend causin no ripples and just ridin the wave(i kno u like that analogy) i can honestly say if it wasnt for my xanga(runnin since i wuz a freshman), i dun think i would be as open as i am now. little by little i poured my soul onto this site to release the stresses of everyday life…and there were alot. now my long-time readers and a handful of my closet friends fully kno cory…not jaden, not tampon(im not sure i explained this name on xanga yet), but the real cory. ive become a pro at holdin back…an acquired talent i guess.
been a while….hope evryone is doing fine. had three fun events; march of dimes, special olympics, and aids walk. this is a notice to bring in ur credit slips if you want to recieve credit for key club this year. partial credit is available, so credit will be given based on participation on events and attendance. on a piece of paper make sure you write down what activities you’ve done and hand it in to me latest by friday may 25th. i can be found in the math or foreign language rc’s during C,J,K bands. if u have any questions just stop me when u see me or melissa. see you at country fair!! and me = cory 🙂
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“i wonder if i can still get my thoughts across while containing my emotions enough from u to control wut u see from me” – jaden
“i chill wit those people cuz i like to hang wit people who i can have an intelligent conversation. its just easier with smart people than dumb ones” – cory
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