Boi Growing Up

“If you could do it over again, start from scratch, would you?”

a question that came up while i wuz doin a quiz/survey on myspace(alot of inspiration i see comes from there)i would have usually just answered “no” but my mind got stuck on this question and i couldnt decide. i eventually said no, but part of me still says yes.

a part of me says yes because of all the mistakes ive made during the past, all the things ive missed out on. the people i shouldve opened up to and those i shouldve held back from. it makes u wonder if u could start from scratch would u be able to do it perfect? would u be able to direct your pathway to return to a point that u r happy with? u would then have the ability to make yourself perfectly happy. im sure sum of u r sayin theres no such thing as perfect happiness, but i think there is. when you come to a point where everything in the past has perfectly come together with your present circumstances to create harmony and peace. that is perfect happiness.

then there is the argument that perfect happiness isnt dictated but coincidental. there’s no way u can determine when youll be happy until youve hit it and it passed on by. as you can tell by how far of a tangent off i went, i have alot on my mind. but to relate it to the original question, if happiness comes from past and present and your happy now, wut if u got rid of or smoothed out those rocky points in your past. would you still be happy when you reach this point again or may sumthin else happen that u might not be ready for because you didnt have it happen to u in the past. ur past determines how youll be in the future or “now”. what if i start over and make different choices that dont lead me to the point where i meet the same people later in life. if anyone ever asks me “who influences u to be the way u r?”, ill give this answer always with 6 people in mind, “my friends would be the ones to influence me the most. im not sure wut i would do without them”. if it wuznt for them, in my mind i see a totally different person. i would probably not be that same oreo, kpop listenin, guitar rockin, easygoin person before u. i couldve been a much more ghetto kid today(another story, another time).

my last thought, i promise, is this: we seem to overlook wut happende to us in the passed whether its good or bad. our whole lifes determines who we r, wut we like, wut kindo f people we cant stand, even how we perform the simplest task. im not sure if i would wanna take the risk of messing up wut i have now to start over from the beginning.

wut r your opinions on this questions?…im just curious. good night everybody