ok so really as much as i wanted to say my blogging journey was ovr, i doubt any of u actually believed me. part of me didnt even believe myself__. but thats me i guess. i missed alot bein away from here. u readers missed alot that went on since i havent posted it here…unless ur part of the group who have my twitter(ckashaan), then u kno more than my owwn mother lol__.
which btw ive radically decided to move out and now im living with my dad and stepmom in queens. who wouldve predicted that? …nope i didnt think so__
well now i guess ill get to my mind’s release and then have a nice nap havin known ive returned to spilling my deepest thoughts on this highly public space. i hope the hiatus hasnt affected my ability to transmit my thoughts much__.
loyalty. y is this such a lacking thing in this world? ppl turn ovr eachother. breakdown eachother’s chances just to get ahead. turn their back on their own family just to get a buck(u may think that one a little hypocritical of me, but u kno not where my loyalty lies__). its a cruel and opportunistic society, but it seems to b human nature. but it is also human nature to commit oneself to one ideal and follow through. loyalty happens to b mine.
im chillin wit a really good friend ive made at work this summer so far, claude(shout out!__), and he asked me wut is one thing i would change in this world. wit the extended amount of time it took me to answer i guess i was really givin it sum thought, but my answer was definitely meant to have a double meaning. one was definitely my confession to him that id have his baq no matter wut and the second was that i really think more ppl should hold to their “wingmen”. if u cant figure it out, my answer was loyalty. well i specifically said “i would have ppl stay more loyal to eachother”.
this existence that evryone shares would b so much more peaceful if the greed and underlying hostility were diminished from life.
althought the instinct to stick by the side of that selected person or persons isnt always easy. like there r times i wanna just ditch my best friend cuz he makes me like “ur such an asshole” but i remember i decided i would stick to him the very end no matter wut. …which is kinda y i got really mad when he has that little faith that i wont do sumthin to hurt him, but its just a roadbump… tru loyalty is the commitment of ur companionship. its the arch built into the suspension bridge design
sry i just went a little engineer on u__