Boi Growing Up

so i originaly expected to come baq to xanga after my vacation away, postin about my experience helpin my sis move or drivin my dad’s new bmw, but after listenin to this song over and over and commentin on my friend’s status, ive come to post about sumthin else.

so my bestie from college has got a new bf(im using bf in this post as boyfriend and not best friend). i was like so happy when she texted me and told me he finally asked her. cuz she was mad stressed and she liked him. so life is good. life is fun, we’re jokin and stuff lol. then i come home and saw her new status on fb. so i go to comment and im mad stupid giggly cuz im the first one. then my browser froze(thx alot internet explorer) and i refreshed to c he commented b4 me and it hit me….hard.

i cant b the same close with her like i used to b. i gotta let her go to him now and i will b on the side, watchin from afar. all lonely me.

wow, i sound pathetic.

but now u see how the song helped me c this. Day and Night by Kid Cudi
lyrics:
  Day and night.
  The lonely stoner
  seems to free his mind at night.
  He’s all alone on through the day and night.
  The lonely loner seems to free his mind at night.
  A aa at night.

but its like a certain personal line i can no longer cross. and its sucks much. cuz then ill b crossin into his space, and id hate to b the bestie that got in the way, u kno? but its not like i have no other friends, just only a handful as close. ..i just counted, only 3 left..

but lol, i wouldnt have this post now if i wouldnt have posted after him. sumtimes life just sends u signals in weird ways. call it god, call it karma, call it the spirits, wutever. i just say “let me realize b4 i or anyone else gets hurt”

til next time. stay frosty.

(edit)i am so now goin to start lookin for a bf. hit that datin circuit hard man. so i guess u can say im taking applications