alright so i was on facebook and one of my friends posted a new note on their page. i was reading it and i couldnt help but get a little teary eyed, cuz it made me think of all my friends too. sure i kno alot of ppl, but i would only call a select group my friends. and then even fewer get bf status. and then i have 3 bff’s(which i think i may have to add one or two more soon). but with my group of close friends i would b devastated if i lost even one of them. we’re a family that cant b separated no matter how far we go from eachother(yes i kno that statement contradicts sumthin i said in my post “WAS IT WORTH IT”. ill make a retraction later).
but i think we all have this “simultaneous pulling closer and pushing further” mental action that we have with our relationships. especially when ur a person that isnt sure of the future of stability of the bonds between u. its like u want them to get to kno u, so u pull them closer. but then ur fearful of losin them so u keep urself detached to protect ur emotions. its this weird duality of opposing emotions. ur want to b close, but ur minds auto-defense against pain.
but to my friends, i luv u guys with all my heart. ya’ll kno id do anythin and evrything for u all. cuz i wouldnt b me without u. especially when i went through a time when i thought id lose u all and i was of course proved wrong. and hopefully we can grow old together, living close, and we’re all succesful doin wut we want.
this post inspired by jason’s lyrics.
i hope u all realize that “lyrics” r notes. or at least thats how im using the word
til next time, stay frosty.