Would you like to take a journey with me?
It almost seems as if the last few posts have been inspired ever since I’ve gotten into a relationship, but no. I’ve just been having some things on my mind and the recent undulating of my emotions has me extra expressive.
Love conquers nothing.
It is stronger than nothing. It solves nothing. It excuses nothing. It literally is only there to make you superficially happy and has no other purpose.
Ooh…the glumness of that statement.
“Who does a man love more? The woman he lies to or the woman he tells the truth to?”
An open ended debate. Do I care more because I tried to protect you? Do I care more because I gave you honesty, even if it hurt you?
You ever just get the feeling of…”wander”? I just want to be somewhere else, somewhere different. Not particularly because I want to go there, wherever “there” is, but I just don’t want to be “here”. Take me anywhere.
“Here” is where my stress is. “Here” is where I have to work. “Here” is where I’m stuck in my apartment. “Here” is where I can’t be alone. “Here”, things are constantly moving and my soul needs to take a break. But if I stop running the routine while I’m here, then “here” will trample me. I just wanna be at a new “here”, a “there”.
You ever just need a couple of days? Just a couple to yourself. When something comes and knocks you off your delicate balance in your head. That something that pulls you outside of your body and you’re left looking at your shell, your insides spilling all over the floor with no hope of containment. You know what messes you up the most like that? Love.
Yeah, I don’t know what to do anymore.
Love is not something I hand out easily. It takes a whole lot to trust enough to be able to let my guard down and expose my soft interior. My love is a degree even further beyond that. So far away that “on the horizon” doesn’t apply here. Unreachable by any conceivable means, but when you hit it…it’s more the impact to myself that I have to brace myself for. Continue Reading