ahhh. a nicee return to xanga eh? i havent been here in sooo long. its nice to look and see most of friends kept up their pages. i promise(this time i really mean it(no i really do)) to be faithful and start blogging again. i need to get baq in the loop lol. and im sry for not posting sooner. college is insane. i wish i wouldve posted about my first day, then u guys couldve been there with me

now for the real reason im here

ive been thinking about this for some time now and i thought wut a more relieving way to drop the weight off my shoulders than by posting it on xanga. well as i have so graciously braced my friends, i have had a major change this summer and i truthfully dont think many of them r gonna like it. even as i write this i hope and at the same time hope not that one of my friends would stumble upon this. i hope mayb it would prevent me from actually saying the words and mayb it can help me stall a little longer. lol. im stupid. i guess im only worried about the opinions of my best friends. evryone else can hate me or luv me, wutever. one of them already knos and hes kool, so i guess its down to a few left. i can say that ive never been more scared about anything ever in my life. well mostly cuz theres no turning baq. well here goes nothing…i am now gay…….