aight so im chillin wit my friends in a chinese restaurant by my skool and one of them noticed the button on my bookbag. its like of those “got milk” things, but it says “got jrock” instead. my bf got it for me when he went to an anime festival. anyway we got into a convo about my “asian wannabe-ness” and …long story short… i ended up defending my lifestyle choices over lunch.
but of course i had to ponder it for a while afterwards. have i really been a wannabe for the majority of my rememorable life(lol the part of my life that i can remember?)? if u look really generally, im good with technical crap(although i think thats just cuz im an analytical person), i refuse to tlk ghetto-ness, i play handball….hard, i listen to mostly asian music(hence the jrock button), and like 99% of my friends r asian(ok mayb 95% but u get my point. its too early in the morning to b doing exact math). if u put all those together im an asian wannabe. but that cant b fully tru. believe it or not, im extremely proud to b able to say im african-american. we have a deep history in the states and i’ll never leave that(i am not tlkin about barack obama at the moment. he is another post at another time).
then i remember sumthin my big bro joey told me, “No one is defined solely by their race. Everyone is their own self Tampon.” (new readers, “tampon” was my nickname in csi in high skool.) im not tryin to b asian cuz i like asian stuff, nor am i blk becuz my skin was made that way. im just me. all my preferences make up me. (all of them. evry single one. think hard and youll kno which one im tlkin about. yes even that one.) but i wonder if our generation and those after us will ever come to a point where there are no more attributes blindly associated to a group of ppl.
truthfully as i sit here in my library(i tend to think clearer at skool) i have no idea how to end this post. so im gonna leave it and mayb come baq to it later in time.
til next time. stay frosty
sp thnks to: joey “big bro”…the smart words lol.
jonathan…for the button. it was a cool gift
jason…for callin me the wannab