TIRED OF BEING WUT U WANT ME TO BE. FEELIN SO FAITHLESS, LOST UNDER THE SURFACE…

Posted by ckashaan on February 5, 2007
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im not sure how much longer i can hold on to my insides. i cant keep stretchin myself to be the funny guy at home, quiet & unnoticeable on the bus, smart around adults, stupid wit sum friends, a pushover to others, a big guy to the rest. the mental strain is too much. i totally wanted to beat the shit out of this kid today in my gym class. its hard to stay calm, but i made it this far.

and i got a question today. “y do u let joey push u around so much? u should just kick his ass.” i said,”cuz hes an older brother. figuratively speaking.” i really thought,”if u only knew y i did it, u wouldnt say anything.”

WTF?

Posted by ckashaan on January 27, 2007
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math b regents wuz kind of easy. just alot of writing. i guarantee at least 85 if not a 90(i would say 100, but im not perfect). this week ive played my games more than i probably ever have. it made me realize i need new games. maybe i will get a xbox 360( just to cure my boredom). ok the verdict is in,(drumroll please)………my new location of livin will be located in marine park of brooklyn, ny. hold ur applause(y would u applause anyway). ttyl

y do sum chicks have to be such bitches sumtimes(but i still luv most of u)? that one is just for u man.

 

EXPOSED

Posted by ckashaan on January 20, 2007
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am i that easy to find online? or is it just that now i have my picture on here?

just a question…

how many people think im turnin emo or am i already emo? just askin

and i may be tampon in math class, but i am NOT tampon in gym and i am damn sure not tampon on my site!

oh and my team won the tournament. (its not like u didnt expect us to win)

A THOUGHT…

Posted by ckashaan on January 17, 2007
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a thought came into my mind when my mom asked whether i wanted mashed potatoes or macaroni.( i said i wanted macaroni) i wuz like can u make the kraft macaroni and she wuz like, no im not cookin that cheap stuff. my mom likes to make expensive stuff which is wut im used to. the thought wuz, i started to look back on my life growin up and i got everythin i ever wanted. i wuz literally a spoiled, little, white kid.(of course i wuznt white) then i looked at my life now and i saw sumthin. i not sure how it happened, whether it wuz my personal friendships, or “down to earth” teachers i chill wit, but im not the same person. im more focused on makin myself comfortable rather than keepin up wit the crowd and stayin kool.(and i wuz always ahead) if some of my old friends from junior high would see me now, they would be like, wut the hell happened to u? and i would be like, life happened.

wish my team luck on our game tomorrow. my gym volleyball team is in the inter-class final game and everyone is sayin the team we’re goin against is really good. well i say u havent seen me and my asians.( yes im the only non-asian on my team.) “lei yau sai jurjur” i learned that for the second time. anyone kno wut it means? i do

…and did anyone find that Se7en track yet?