i am so totally mad righ now. i treid to sign on to aim today and they suspended my account. not just one of them, but all 3. im a little pissed cause i had mad contacts through that crap. my buddy list is like 11 now. i feel so pathetic.  im just lettin u kno cause if i had ur sn, this is my new one: ckashaan16. send me a message.

wit regents so close my head is bout explode. all the studyin. i have to make up for 2 regents i missed also. (yes i kno ur all surprised.) so i have to do extra studyin for those. im gonna burn-out before i get started.

check mcr’s cd. its sweet.

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my question is this: i wonder y mad poeple dun like f.o.b.s.

that was short wasnt it?

i finally got my respect back! u may not believe it but monday, the worst guy in my gym class beat me. i wuz like . this wuz not happenin. sure im not gonna say im the best, cuz im not the best. i never considered myself to be. im just better than most people. i got my rematch today. and i won twice. so out of the total 3 times we played all week. i am better. honor is a big part of y i play. in this game i am a minority. literally. i am, 1 of 3 black kids in the class. everyone else is azn.(no shit) so i have to play 10x better just to get the props i can play. its too hard. stereotypes suck .

i havent been to school in 2 days! i dun think u kno how happyi was. all the rest, no class. wednesday i had a trip for my marine bio class. we went to this trout farmaquarium in long island. ur like wtf aren’t u. aren’t u? we got to see how trout reproduce and stuff. they had an aquarium which wuz cool. i would rate the whole trip a 8.5 overall. amazing enough, this is the first trip ive had all h.s.(i kno,……wow) thursday i woke up and i wuz mad tired. u kno how when u have to wake up mad early, and u dun feel like doin anythin. that wuz me. so i went into my mom’s room and said “ma. can i stay home today. i have a headache and i dun feel well.” I DID NOT LIE. i do make it my goal to not lie no matter wut. so far ive been sucessfull. i stayed home and relaxed all day. it wuz sweet.

i officially admit i broke my policy. when i became a sophomore(im a junior), i told myself i would not deal wit any freshies(freshman). i have stuck to that policy. its a little mean, but i actually scared sum freshies. anyway, in my other sci class(biology), im mad kool wit 2 freshies. one alwys asks me for help, so we’re cool. and this grl keeps “molestin” me. not seriously, but its mad funny.

bought sum new sneakers on saturday. i wuz a little tired of my old ones, so i bought 3 more. wut kind of logic is that. i got sum shaqs, reeboks, and dc usa(skate shoes). no i dun skate board not for a while anyway. y do chicks need so many shoes?(i just had to put that in there). who saw fuse fangoria chainsaw awards? 30 seconds to mars’ performance wuz cool good night everybody.

psat is over. stress is over. back to reality. time to deal wit everything else

its like im not gettin math the way i used to. its weird cause math was my best subject, now im just barely keepin ahead of the pack. y do i have to try so hard. im not adapted to go beyond wut comes natural for me.

and just a thought. i kno my ass is cute and all, but y do chicks have to grab it all the time?